It has been a long time no writing here. Honestly, i have been through a lot this year, maybe this half-of-year.
Stop. I rarely using english in this blog, aye? pardon my english. Not my mother tongue so i am not speaking english fluently. Pardon my english.
Why should i write in english? *too much asking* i just want to. going back to the topic shall we?
Yes. i have been through a lot. I am really sick of the word cheating and betraying and so on so on. I am sure these fucking tings affected in my life. I am sure i got bad scores and almost fail in my school (eventho i passed it, and i graduated). I am sure i dont feel okay. I am sure about everything.
What happened these past few months, are all hard. I cant really face the truth and i ended up hurting my self even more. I am a human. I make mistakes. I loose weight more than 5 kilos, for only 2 weeks. I gained more but not much, and then something hit me again and loose another kilos. And the worst of all, I choose to be the old rebel me. How pathetic is my life nowadays.
But now i know, i dont have to give any shits to these shits. This thing, is one of my growing up part. I know, eventho i cant, nobody cant, but The Man above can. Now i move on, and trying to grow bigger and bigger, to let them see, i am more than they know. And with my strength, i will rule my world.
reginabigail
ps: i am preparing for another Dunia Nirmala. Be ready for the next adventure. I guarantee this is not another adventure. ciao
